This is very articulate and thoughtful, thank you for sharing. Are you familiar with Victor Frankl? The CS Lewis quote was very intriguing — God is not something *I* personally can be only moderately interested in. I’ve tried, but He is too important to everything else I do, say, think. It’s like trying to make an apple pie without apples. Apples MAKE the pie an apple pie. Just like our view of God, of our meaning/purpose in life is also what makes our lives our lives.